Growth is one word that has so many meanings like success does, depending on who's defining it and the factors that may have affected their definitions. Of course, I know growth is a continuous time action that is irreversible but recently, I try to make myself conscious of the puzzling definition my life has given for growth.
Growth is when habits, beliefs or routines that once felt necessary to oneself begin to feel like limitations. Yes, when it feels like that, growth is bound to happen if one would allow it. For a while now, I've been feeling this way and since the feeling started, I've been experiencing silent but very slow growth which is better than limitations.
I read in one article that reads "A win is a win until you compare it with others". One major limitation to growth is when we try to compare ourselves with others and we begin to feel we are way behind, we feel we can't catch up with the speed the world is going at, we hold back in fears that we would lose out, we prefer the comfort of now.
I'm saying this because it is exactly how I was feeling until a while ago. I saw myself getting bored in doing the things I did before that excited me, I feel discomforted by what comforts me before, I'm mostly restless nowadays thinking more on what I'm not doing but should be doing. They are like all coming at once and it's draining.
But I'm totally in for the drain, I want to be discomforted to more discovery of what I can do and the impact level I can achieve when I put my mind into it. I know this could come off as me comparing myself with others but I can not deny the fact that when I see people finding out what they can do and actually go for it, I admire them.
The version of me I am quietly outgrowing is the "I can't do this, I can't do that", it's too late for me", "I've made too many mistakes already" mindset. I guess God wants me to do better in the way I think and push me to take more actions than just creating thoughts in my head, because I keep seeing people and situations to stop the thought.
It's not going to be easy, I've been teaching my brain to accept that fact but still keep pushing to create a better version of myself that will thank me later. Growth comes with conviction, discomfort and consistency, I plan to keep myself in that moment until I achieve what I never thought I could but believed that I would.
I don't hate the present me, in fact, I'm loving myself more to take good care of me so I could see myself achieving more in the nearest future and experiencing growth in every way possible for me. But I'm totally in love with the person I'm yet to become and I can't wait to outgrow all that's unnecessary for me to achieve that future.
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