It's funny that she is a mother herself but cannot see the love without bound coming from you to her.
But cool stuff! If one is inexplicably repulsed by something, could it be related to a forgotten trauma? A child who is terrified of clowns perhaps had a clown mobile fall on her in her crib for instance. Nothing is fully forgotten. Forgiveness? I have trouble forgiving. I remain forever leary of anyone who hurt me, even if they apologize. What's to stop them from doing it again?
Hey, I'm in Nashville! We are foodies, and while we will do a couple music related events, we have seven reservations at great restaurants over the next two weeks. sorry to go off topic, I just had to tell you!
Great idea: what forgotten images or triggers might lurk in our subconscious, and we don't even remember the triggering event (the clown, the neighbor's big scary dog, the tree branch outside the window that looked like a panther staring in as you try to fall asleep, so you grow up with a fear of panthers) - That could be a whole new onion to peel, to dig down to the core, to face the things that made a profound impression on us even if we cannot remember the things without hynposis or guided therapy. Or something that sets off the "aha!" moment, like the old blanket or the swan mobile.
Thank you for reading and responding - you always get it - you're unfailingly kind!
oooh, the restaurants... blessed are those who never have to ask to see the ingredients list for fear of hidden allergens. Family time in Nashville with your daughters - may it be healing and just plain FUN even with the shadow of the empty chair at the table, the one Niko isn't physically there to occupy, but he will be included in your laughter and reminiscing. love to all of you!!!
The blanket! It served as a great backdrop for a high-school photo shoot (can you guess which gal is my middle child, which is her Friend-for-Life):