I never really wanted to share this, but I constantly get into this mood of drafting perfection and now, I can say that I feel very compelled to talk about it, to not one person but to many.
This feeling doesn't come always, it comes when I've failed to do a particular thing, or I remember failing to do something very important. Sometimes it comes when I look at myself, where I come from, where I am, and where I'm going.
In times like this, I pull out confidence from the fact that there's nothing I'm going through that is new. And that other people have also felt this way at some point in their lives. And so instead of musing about it, I focus on finding ways to overcome these challenges, just like others have done.
I'm not into perfection, I believe it's impossible and that there's beauty in imperfections—the fact that you are real to some extent and humanistic earns you trust.
Not so long I discovered writing things like this (my thoughts) down in my diary makes things simple for me, it clears my mind and there's an 80% certainty that it will come to reality. Looking at my diary now, I am currently where I wanted to be a few years ago, I possess some of the characteristics I listed out; self-confidence, optimism, and perseverance. They are my little achievements.
I easily forget my thoughts, so I write them down to ensure I won't forget them. In a few years, I know I'll be grinning from ear to ear while flipping through the pages of my diary because I will have become everything I wrote.
Do you feel like life is complicated? You're not alone. I feel that way too most of the time. I do wonder why some things happen, like failing after putting in so much effort or succeeding without even trying enough. Does it just happen, or is that how they're meant to be?
If you asked me one of the things I learned last year, it's accepting uncertainty. I realized that things won't always go the way we want them to. And that some things are within our control, while others are beyond our control. I try to focus on the things I can control, but sometimes even those slip through my fingers, and that's when disappointment creeps in.
Is it right to feel this way? YES,because it makes me feel that I'm alert, alert enough to notice the little changes outside and within me. I feel blessed that I can identify these changes and be able to express them to the best of my ability and that I'm very willing to evolve into a better person because I believe that someday I will have a better version of myself. Better to my satisfaction.
The clock is ticking fast. Thinking about age and the things you haven't achieved can give you a headache. It's like we're running a race, and I'd like to think of it as a marathon - slow and steady. Never giving up, always running until we reach the finish line. The problem now might be the direction we're running in. Are we going the right way or are we just running aimlessly? Honestly, it hurts to think about it. I feel like crying when I'm confused about the path I'm on. I don't know if it's just me who lacks confidence or if others also feel this way at some point in their lives.
After reading this far, you may be wondering how I cope with thoughts like these. Well, I indulge in self-motivation. I constantly tell myself that I'll get there and that it's just a matter of time. I'll become who I want to be by seizing every opportunity to improve myself, keeping track of my goals, celebrating little wins, and appreciating everything I have - both the good and the bad.
Reflection is like emotional medicine to me. They heal, revive, and restore.🤗
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Beautiful publish @phyna . Everyday is a miracle with life, for even some people can’t focus to analyze the thoughts of their heart 💜 because life is a mystery.
Although its good to have dreams that leads to the urge of goals, objectives and achievements, but sometimes it just happens the other way round. All we need is take everyday as they come, planing and hoping, because we might never know when the turning point of things will hit. The most is to be optimistic. #minimalist-lifestyle.
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Thanks very much for your good words, I appreciate your contribution to my post.
Every day is a miracle to us indeed.
Thank you for stopping by:)
I had more beautiful flowers in previous posts, you can take a look.
You are welcome beautiful 😍.
Will surely check out the previous post. Enjoy your day lovely 🥰.
@phyna did you look into my life and come up with this? just like you I always feel this way and when it sinks in I move from being helpless to being frustrated. I envy people who can give a correct answer to the question "Where do you see yourself in the next five years", I do not have a concrete answer to this. I know I'll be married in five years time and be successful but the details in between I do not know.
I'm glad to see that I am not alone in this.
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I'm glad you can relate, love. I thought I was the only one in this.
And about that question, you just asked, I don't have an answer to it too. I'm just trying to do my best in everything.
Thank you so much for stopping❤️, this means a lot to me.
You are most welcome and thanks for sharing🥰
Yep, it happens to all of us. Don't worry, you'll find the way eventually.