Hello everyone, how are you? Hope you are all doing well. I am happy with this prompt. Talking about change. But, I need to explore further about what changes I have experienced in the past few years. It is a bit difficult, because humans sometimes do not record the changes that occur every day.
So, what is the answer? From the many events that I have experienced, I finally found God again. Maybe 11 years ago, when my father died, I started to hate God. Why did I lose my father so quickly. I may lose friends or relatives, but my life collapsed when my father died.
I hate God, why did he take the most precious person in my life. It feels unfair, if you look at people. I have lost my youngest sister, when I was in elementary school. But, it was different when I lost my father. I have told this in previous prompts.
For years I hated God, I left my religious rituals. I do not believe in the power of God. Maybe I became agnostic, in scientific terms. I still believe God exists, but I hate God for taking my father. For years, I gave up my religion. No one can bring me back.
Until finally, covid attacked the world. I started to get scared, I don't know what made me believe in God's power again. Forgiving the loss in the past. I started praying again. Dhikr, praying, reciting the Koran and others. I found God again.
One by one, my wishes began to come true. Everything was made easier. When I started to forgive the past and found God again. It felt like this was the second turning point in my life. In 2023, I lost my mother. But, I didn't think about hating God again.
I thought that everything was the way it was. I no longer rejected the loss I experienced. I was calmer and more accepting of the path of destiny of loss. I accepted the fate of my mother's death. I found God again. Found the greatest power besides human power.
That's all I can tell. This is a big change in my life. I accept God and destiny again. What do you think? This is a spiritual experience that is different for everyone. See you in the next story.
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My name is Nurdiani Latifah. I live in Jakarta – Indonesia, and after 25 years I live in Bandung. I am a media staff at an NGO in Indonesia. I have worked in this institution for almost 2 years on issues of women and peace. I have been a journalist in Bandung for 3 years.
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It’s always so easy to get sucked in to the bad and the negative. But yeah, finding purpose is always the medicine.
thank you very much, rediscovering god and purpose of life is the key to living the next life