What We Ordered vs What We Received in Life

Life can be filled with whatever we want it to be. At times, it can be worries, desires, needs, wants, and so on. I could still remember how strongly I desired to be independent and just leave my parents because at that time, I had believed that I was being choked, and I needed some freedom and space.

When the opportunity to sleep outside for the first time came, I took but I was very scared of the punishment I would face when I returned home the next morning. Although I had informed them where I was, I still had that fear in me, and I still remembered how uncomfortable I was as I could not sleep properly. What I had learn that night is that it’s not all my desires that I need to fulfil, and I needed to value what I had.

I could also remember when I had used my entire salary to buy a phone (Blackberry) because I wanted to feel among. After the purchase, I had felt happy temporarily, then the next minute, I felt complete empathy because at that moment, the phone number was not what I needed but what I had wanted. Materialistic things like the phone in my instance are vanity, as it was not an asset then. Ever since then, I don't act based on impulse; I try to look at the pros and cons of things before deciding.

The future is the greatest unknown to me, and as someone who overthinks at times, I would ask myself questions like whether my current thoughts about the future would alter it. I know personally from experience that I am unable to control everything around me and happening to me. So, what I do is quite simple: once I get this urge to move or call someone or drink water, etc., I listen to it as I have come to believe that it’s my body trying to enjoy the moment. However, when a particular task becomes a repetition within the same period of time, then I overanalyse it. They might all be vanity upon vanity, but I try to live in the present and not over-worry or overthink about the past or future, unless the need be.

Also always remember that only the living could bury the dead. We need to be appreciative daily and regularly check up on our loved ones while they are still here.

This is my entry to week 60, episode 02 of the weekly featured contest for reading, and the topic to be discussed is The Irony Of Life.

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