Because I know what you're going through and it sucks.
Enduring it for the moment is the best option perhaps.. I rest everything on the hands of maktub. Sometimes fighting the trend doesn’t work it seems. Who knows, im a participant. Only an observer can tell i guess..
Btw i cant thank you enough for being there!! You guys are that slight flicker of hope at the very end of a cave! This is such a blessing for me..