I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so sad! While it's good you managed to feel some joy with the chinese herbs (much better choice than antidepressants), I'd really like to see you try Ignatia 200c, twice a day. This is an especially good remedy for grief. Some people feel relief immediately, or in a few days.
You've got this.
I've always got along with herbal remedies - my system likes them! I had a look in local stores for ignatia - you used to get homeopathic remedies for less than a tenner - but no luck. Ill stick with what's working for me for now, but thanks for your care X