Yo, I haven't gotten to discord yet, too many classes today, not able to unwind yet. I'll be there sometime in the next 24 hours.
I can totally relate to this. When I rely on the world to make me happy it fails every single time, but that doesn't mean there isn't an abundance of happiness to discover, it just requires me to look for it, or to create it.
The crazy thing about depression and human emotion in general is that it doesn't always react to the same stimuli the same way. So one person in an awful situation may not feel that bothered, but another in a much less severe situation may be devastated, and this does not even mean the second person is weaker or more sensitive. Perhaps they are more of a saltwater fish in a freshwater pond, or perhaps they have not advanced as far through Maslow's hierarchy of needs. We are such complex creatures and we are always changing.
I had a close friend who I lost to suicide. I never once blamed her. I miss her so much, but I can only hope she found peace. I don't think she made the best decision, but I respect it anyway. With life there are always possibilities, and things can turn around in a moment.
I hope you can find all the joy you desire, you deserve it.
Thanks for dropping by. In reality, I do believe that I wouldn't even begin to imagine what a suicidal person is going through.
There was a time in my life where I had people who undermined my experiences and how it turned out to be devastating for me. Some people basically feel that a situation should determine how a person reacts to it.
This is why I always lay emphasis on the fact that we are all built or equipped differently.
While am I not be suicidal, wasn't particularly great superhuman abilities in me, sometimes it requires the highest level of motivation to stay adrift.
I've been having classes too and always busy, I just manage to squeeze in online time as well as time to be on hive as well.