I do not know. I see my past just about as well as i see my future.
It is mostly because humans are programmed to see their past, and think of it as real, solid, unchangeable.
Many people get glimpses of their future. We call it deja vu.
You really need some healing. Every pain you feel from the past is a point of entry into something that needs healing. I am unsure which healing modality will work well for you.
Oh, I'm healed from past pains. It's the present that is ghastly.  Every moment for decades in the present. Enduring what is.
But I will do My work to solve for this misery - for Me and Humanity. Mainly for Humanity.