You need to guide your mental health. You can do this by minding the post you read or things you engage in,
I would say many people easily think of committing suicide by what they see online which most times are not real, but fake. When we see our mates making it while we are still at a low level, the next thing is to start thinking why are we on earth? Meanwhile, we are only seeing one side of what is posted online and are easily deceived to think less of ourselves. It is not so. We need to be careful of what we watch on the net and be careful. Also, trying to open up to someone might help, because there are still the good people who are willing to give an helping hand, instead of thinking of suicide where you only put your people into another sorrowful state.
I enjoyed your post, thank you for sharing.