RE: With Distinction.

Onto the next adventure?

Seems that would be the case. I do not think I want to farm or garden anymore unless it is using these methods I learned. I should have more faith but feeling over whelmed with this information. I feel like I had too much expectations with this school. Like I said in this post it might be time for me to get a job or go to a monastery. Probably just need to chill out this week and wait and see what is available out there. My mind is shot right now. watched each lecture 3-4 times, 200+ hours of school in 24 days. Just feeling like blah and who cares we are F'd as humans as clearly we are on the brink of extinction lol. There is a major dust bowl situation going on currently and with humans being so divided right now I am having a hard time seeing hope.

Would be cool if I made it closer to my kids in portland and found a job utilizing the techniques. As it is this information seems to only cause grief to people around me and myself. Who would had thought that learning how to make aerobic compost, aerobic teas, aerobic extracts and using a microscope to make it work would piss people off. Like um just talking about not using inputs, rebuilding soil structure, no more pesticides and better yeilds... Kind of like trying to onboard people to Hive from twitter. Most will laugh at ya but then talk hella shit because they are not making money from a tweet.

Thanks for commenting man. Yeah, Mark would be happy. PTSD sucks and watching someone die of cancer fast really has a way of messing up a person. Each day I see him and he keeps telling me to keep going and to not stop. I think accomplishing this is what he meant.

Much love man.