Ever felt life everyday is a bettle for you?.
Waking up everyday and just dreading that moment when it all goes south, it's a repetitive routine you try so hard to avoid with no such luck..
Moments where you ponder on how useless your existence is, but is it really worth fighting for?.
Days as gloomy as hell, where you are expected to always be the bubbly,cheerful person you pretend to be. Everyone keeps comparing you to them ,claiming they go through something to but just know how to handle it better( I say that's bull crap), everyone is got there own battles but never pretend to understand when your malicious brain is so selfish to think it's that easy to overcome one's issues.
You try so hard to keep up that image of perfection but end up losing control.
Days you scream your lungs out when alone but up with a perfect smile when amongst people just so to avoid been ridiculed.
Times when everyone has a perfect life and you wish for just a moment to have a feel of what that life entails.
Fine one minute, back in the dark space the next ( it's an everyday battle of pushing).
It's feels like been locked in a cage with only tiny chances and glimpse of freedom before its been taken away.
Always expected to give your best when the same has not been done for you.
In a world where presence is the deal of the day,mental health a total myth and never quite cared about.
It's really tricky how you give out little clues but everyone turns a blind eye to it and when you choose the safest and best option they come in full force claiming they never noticed.
If only the world could change the mindset we leave with, where Noone has to feel bad for existing, where there is support for mental health illnesses, Happiness wouldn't be seen so far out of reach.
