This morning like many other colder morning lately, I keep waking up a little later than usual.
The alarm rings but that's about it. I acted like I had nothing to do while in reality, I have dozens to think about and figure out.
Unsure why I am writing this out loud but here it is
Somehow, whenever I stay at this home, among many other homes I stayed in, my brain turns into " you're safe here, you don't have to work hard, it's a vacation for you now". That recently revealed something of how environment really shapes me and how easy it was for me to let my guard down.
Typically, I'd visit this house only a couple of times in a year because I tend to live outside, working on things that makes me feel like a hamster in a loop. Then this home provides comfort.
I don't have to do chores.
I never have to worry about my meals.
I never have to worry about laundry.
I never have to worry about domestic households.
All I have to worry about was how to keep the lights on and everyone fed.
While it sounds pretty nice, I love it at times but parts of me felt like some sense of discipline was being tested. As I was working on solving a problem, I realized how frustrating my day felt like.
Typically.... my week looks like
Traveling to some towns for work. Deal with people. Go back home to recharge and repeat. I love it. I enjoy the thrills of it and basically I am getting used to it now but because these past 2 weeks, there was no travel for me and just basically all documents work. It sounds pretty boring but obviously, I get a little too complacent and it isn't good.
I started thinking about how I've got nothing going in life.
Objectively, that isn't true.
There are things I am building.
There are courses and classes I am teaching.
And dozens of things I am taking care of.
When I froze like this, I realized that honestly during my busy days all those realization wasn't there because of the noise. Once I don't have distraction, chores or extra tabs and tasks inside my brain, somehow I could see how clear things are.
I am still far from where I wanted and I need to continue closing the gap rather than giving it all up just as I used to.
 | 𝘊𝘦𝘮𝘺 (𝘰𝘳 𝘔𝘢𝘤) 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵, 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘶𝘳, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘮𝘣𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘬. 𝘏𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯: 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴? 𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭, 𝘨𝘦𝘰𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘩𝘺, 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴, 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦, 𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘩𝘯𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘰𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘸𝘪𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘴. 𝘍𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯 𝘏𝘪𝘷𝘦, 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘣 𝘢 𝘤𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺.
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There’s always something interesting going on in life, even when it seems like we’re not doing anything, whether we’re on holiday or just relaxing. And those things we do that nobody else knows about, the things that aren’t work, are also worthwhile; they enrich our lives. Hugs!🤗
Indeed! there's always something going on.
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I really felt this. Sometimes comfort makes us pause, but the clarity that comes from slowing down can reveal how much progress we are already making in life quietly.
That's so true! I finally get it now haha