This weekend as the last weekends I am left taking care of my mom, she has reached a very complicated stage of her life, as a daughter I have had to see all the changes she has had every day from being a strong woman to depend on another every time I have to take her to the bathroom or somewhere I hear her babbling "What I have come to" of course I pretend not to listen to not make her feel bad, which makes me question myself, am I doing the right thing?
This weekend was complicated not only could not walk, he had a stomach problem and in addition to that also gave him the flu at times I was like in limbo what do I do? Nothing seems to work without counting how my emotions were in my emotional struggle so what is the key to make the right decision? do I do what my conscience says or do I choose, if everything is wrong with my mom's health what should I solve first? it is to be at a crossroads and not know which way to go so I feel.
Finally I chose to let myself be guided by that inner voice that we all have that tells us what is right or wrong, I just have to hope that it is the right decision, although when it comes to health it is not easy with my mom because nothing works, what I do is put myself in her place and start thinking how I would like to be treated when I am 86 years old and my light is fading with my grandparents, there is nothing left but to give her the best quality of life possible, even if the process affects your emotions.
Finally the right thing to do would be a clear conscience without remorse just give the most in life then nothing makes sense.
I have also had health problems, taking care of a sick person while being sick is not easy, which made me wake up at dawn in the middle of a high fever, while I drink an infusion I just wanted to share this little reflection.
Mario Benedetti
@nill2021
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