And I fail often. And this worries me because despite all of the little lessons we have throughout the day, she is going to remember the way I behave first and foremost.
As parents, everyone of us try to do our best. We all make mistakes and have those feelings but in the end, what matters is all the love we give our kids in all its different ways and situations. You may think she will remember you by the way you behave, but that is your perception and not her's. She will remember all the time, experiences and love you are sharing together, some of them will be learning experiences, others loving ones. But what she is enjoying is a father which spends time with her and is willing to do so and time with our loving ones is the best we can give and receive in life.
This is true. I wonder if I should ask her about it. Do you talk to your kids about these things?
That's a good question, and no, I don't do it maybe because I never stopped to think about it when he was younger (he is 24 now). But it is true that the more you run conversations with your kids, the better and bigger connection you have with them, no matter what the talk is about. Even now that he is older and it is harder, I still try to spend time alone with him every once in a while as I realize time together is what I enjoy the most.