I have low self-esteem, because my skill levels are too low for what I both expect and need from them
Like in everything? I mean we all have skills that are better than most people. Sure there will always be someone better than you at something, but you must not belittle yourself because of that.
I voted high self esteem, but tomorrow I could've voted otherwise. It's a wave I ride, sometimes I feel good, sometimes bad. But most of the time, I look back at what I did and even though I feel I could've done this and that better, I'm mostly proud of what I've achieved.
Anyway haha.
In the things I need to be higher to meet needs for family and myself. I know my limitations pretty well at the moment in many familiar areas and know what I need to get done. Skills don't match needs.
My question is, should esteem be based on feelings at all though?
But let's say in a given condition, you are doing your best. You can't really compare to what you were doing before either, right? Although, I totally understand why one could feel like crap when comparing to themselves or others, there are other factors that also needs consideration.
Like I used to be a software developer, and as I grew in my career I did less and less coding with time. Am I a less proficient developer today? 100%.
There was a lapse of time where my esteem was lower because of that, until I realized I was better at unblocking people, raising the skill level around me and making the team more efficient by doing that.
But, at any single point in time, we are doing the only thing we can, so that has to be our best at that moment :)
Just imagine if you had to go back and start from the bottom again. Could you?
And as you said after, as your role developed, so did your skills. The coding challenges turned into people leader challenges.
The question is not if I could or not. Like... I feel this is more about resiliency than anything. I think I would definitely find it very hard.
But that's for everything I think. Redoing stuff in general is not something I like in general. I used to work in a summer job and I was doing the same movement and I was so depressed after each shift.
Imagine there was people working there for like 40 years. Doing this. over. and. over. ugh!