It seems that the mission has become a little complicated, in those cases I think it helps a lot to play in daylight, with good light and thus lower the fear. At least that's what my friend said. My computer is in repower mode, I need to buy a new one, my friends right now are very busy with CS2, so I must catch up to come back.
Other than that I think it's great that you are having fun and have the motivation to try again. I'm coming to you!
ohh thats an idea, playing in the day, seems Cs2 Is taking over the gaming world right now. the game is cool when i watched it from a player recently