I'm sorry you had a devastating start. And yes, sometimes life feels like that - jammed, dysfunctional and we're unaware of what we did to create that block.
Putting it away is smart.
Bringing flow and movement into thee equation strangely helps - think about the lego build while swimming laps.
Sending hugs. x
I went shooting today, running and gunning. It didn't make the problem go away, just filled my mind with other things for a while. Still, I'll take it.
Thanks for your nice message and hugs. :)