Cleaning activity for 31st March 2025

Countless times, I am all alone not because I want to but because of the fear of betrayal. I have been wounded by people who I thought were families to me but was wrong all along. I find myself to be the only female child amongst my mother children and as a teenager I was cool with it and happy that I don't have to share my stuffs with anyone moreover when my mom buys stuff for herself and it doesn't fit I was so happy to grab it from her since there was nobody to drag it with me but deep down I wanted a sister.

My siblings are nice to me.....like super nice and I thank God for that but then there are sometimes I want to have a female to female conversation but that isn't possible as I can't tell them all since they are male and in this plight I have wanted to be close with some female friends. I became welcoming to ladies and I gave them free space so as to make them comfortable around me. The main aim was for me to get at least one female bestie I can trust like a sister from another mother but the more I try the more they keep breaking my heart.
I have had to deal with a lot of betrayal over the years that it got to the point I had to start isolating myself for my peace of mind.

I needed to recover back and so little by little I withdrew from a lot of people and that period I discovered I was even happier and getting to know myself more. it was more like all those people were distraction to me and truth they were that's why today I have become an eighty percent introvert and twenty percent extrovert of which the joyful part of it is I am discovering me on a daily base.