I feel we are different in that regard, and that was what I meant. I can recall only the moments after I leapt from the nonrecollection bubble, and my recollection is that I felt triumphant that I had done so in order to recall that sense of defiance of orders to not recall that meeting with the boss me (I am sure that sounds insane, BTW). Anyhow, that innate defiance of order is a character trait inherent to me I think is not shared by you, and you instead are invested in strengthening the social order you participate in, or at least that's a sense I have got from our interactions.
I think we have more in common than what leaps through our encounters. I find it sometimes a bit frightening to talk to you, but on the other hand there is something that seemed to have established a connection (interest in one another).
(I am sure that sounds insane, BTW).
thank you for formulating it this way. I appreciate this sense of humor -LoL but no, it does not sound insane. I understand.
What you have sensed of me is probably my wish of strengthening the social order and for some temporarily limited time I was able to be part of it, and have an influence contrary to the collective march. When I was a counselor - without wanting to sound vain, I think I was a pretty unusual type of counselor. It's a loss, actually, because I was good in what I did professionally but I think that also is not something I can go back to.
The world that used to be no longer exists. Forward is the only direction we can go.