I almost never fall asleep before midnight, it's a habit that stuck with me after retirement. As long as I was active at work I had to get up very early, so it was normal for me to be asleep before ten o'clock. But now I can get up at any time, almost always between nine and ten in the morning, so I have no problem going to bed between twelve and one am.
Usually I go to bed and in five or ten minutes sleep comes, but from time to time it resists.
A few days ago I had one of those nights. I went to bed very calm, without any concern in mind and suddenly an idea began to come to me, I started to think about fear, why I stop doing many things out of fear, either because I fear that the result I want will not happen or that I think I do not have the ability to do that task.
As it usually happens in these cases one almost never knows why a thought comes, the fact is that it arrives, settles in our mind and is able to completely scare us away from sleep.
For several minutes I tried to ignore the thought, I took deep breaths, I counted up to a hundred in a backward direction, I tried to imagine a white wall, but none of these strategies gave me any result. There I was, lying there in the darkness of the night, with my eyes closed and with a persistent thought that refused to leave my head.
I thought I had better do something useful with this insomnia, so I went to the kitchen and prepared two cups of a very mild coffee, with a very small amount of coffee, just enough to tint the water black and give it a bit of a bitter taste.
I sat in my armchair with the cup of hot coffee in my hand and began to think about the idea of fear, which was the thought that kept me awake at night. Time began to run slowly and with each sip of that too-watery coffee, more ideas came to me. Suddenly I remembered something I had read somewhere, that fear was nothing more than a lack of love.
That idea was quite revealing to me, I saw a lot of sense in it. I did what I also do many times in moments like this, I looked for a notebook where I write down anything that comes to my mind and I started to write without much intention, just to let my thoughts come out, this always helps me to clear my mind.
After a while I began to feel calmer, it was true, surely those fears of failure that sometimes paralyze me have to do with some lack of self-esteem. I thought that if one could raise that love for oneself, surely one would feel capable of doing many things.
I got up from my armchair and went to warm up another small cup of coffee, I needed to feel the hot liquid in my mouth.
I took just a sip or two, placed the nearly full cup in the sink, let the tap water run over it, returned to the easy chair, and closed my notebook. I didn't even want to see what time it was.
I went to bed thinking that at some point I would look at the notebook and surely it would give me ideas to write some note like this one. Sleep came to me as I thought about that possibility.
The lights coming through the window and the birds singing told me that a new day had arrived...
Thank you for your time.
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There are already two of us that from time to time we have these episodes in life, many times we let ourselves be submerged by those embracing thoughts, in my case when I can not sleep, I take a bath, I drink tea and meditate a little with relaxing music, many times the music relaxes me so much that I fall asleep with the headphones until dawn. I love your strategy, I must begin to put down on paper the ideas that haunt me in those moments, perhaps it is that fear that does not let me record something, I support your point of view, that we must cultivate self-love to go away the fear that overwhelms us, we must fully trust our projects, excellent day accompanied by our elixir, greetings 🥰🤗
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Thank you 🤗
Writing down what comes to mind can be a very helpful strategy, and you always get something back that you can use to publish. Thanks for stopping by and commenting, dear @neilamarcano . A big hug from Maracay.
I'll keep that in mind, my friend. Thanks for that wonderful advice. Big hug! 🤗🥰
Insomnia visits me from time to time. I also have the bad habit of going to bed way too late. One needs to slow the mind down; perhaps read a book. Oh dear, if I have coffee late at night, I will not be able to sleep, but then I drink strong coffee. Hope you have a good sleep tonight @irvinc
One of the things that bothers me to sleep are noises. In my neighborhood now there are a lot of motorcycles and they stay active until about 12 pm. That's also why I go to bed late. Thanks so much for stopping by and commenting dear @lizelle . A big hug from Maracay.
Ugh I understand the feeling I suffer from insomnia some time to time, I use hot milk with some drops of coffee for help me sleeping 😴😴
I am going to try the hot milk and the coffee drops, it will surely help me in moments when I don't feel sleepy. Thank you very much for stopping by and commenting, dear @noemilunastorta . A big hug from Maracay.
Thank you so much for the support.
It's good that you took advantage of the insomnia, I sometimes waste time tossing and turning in bed.
I think the best thing to do is to get up, read or write something, have a hot drink and wait for sleep to come again. To keep tossing and turning does not attract sleep again. Thanks for stopping by and commenting dear @verdesmeralda . A big hug from Maracay.
El insomnio es esa cosita que nos habla en la cabecita y por más que quieras callarlo es imposible ignorarlo, gracias por compartir
Yes, it is very difficult to silence those recurring thoughts. Thanks for stopping by and commenting dear @karos192 . A big hug from Maracay.
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