I can’t totally relate. The feeling that it is your responsibility to build your self more like investment or savings of something tangible like starting an okay family. You are indeed selfless.
in fact, no year has passed that I've failed to buy clothes for my parents and siblings.
It is so nice of you to put your others in remembrance
It's indeed, and I'll continue in that pattern, just that I'll need to give wrong to acquire some needs.