Change

in Hive Learners23 days ago

“Time waits for no one…” is one of the realest quotes out there and is also one of the quotes that runs through my mind from time to time.


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As I get older and wiser and I remember the things I did when I was younger, my reaction to such memories usually vary. Sometimes, I remember some experience that I had and I feel happy and this wave of nostalgia washes over me and I begin to yearn for a repeat of such experience, not as an adult, but as a child. I would love to have those experiences again but as a child having those experiences for the first time ever which only adds to the beauty of the memory.

At other times I remember some absolutely silly experiences and I cringe. I cringe and wonder what was going on in my head that made me have those experiences. The second hand shame that has somehow stood the test of time will then wash over me and automatically, my mood gets tainted because my life was going on well before the cringe memory rushed past and then I have to fight it off and not dwell on it because dwelling on such memories doesn't yield results, only overthinking things that have happened and unnecessary emotional turmoil.

Then, there are times where I remember things that happened to me that left me with unchecked anger and though they say time heals all wounds, I think that's meant for physical wounds and not the wounds of the heart. Because the moment you remember, you remember everything all at the same time along with the feelings that were felt and left unchecked.

Needless to say that without those experiences, I don't know who I would have been. The experiences that fate granted to me fifteen, twenty years ago helped to shape the adult that I am becoming today. The big decisions that I have had to make in the past that led me to this very moment were all carefully curated especially concerning my education. I let others decide for me what path to take as a teenager and I wasn't happy with what I was getting and one day in some frustrated last act, I decided to make the decision for myself and tell everyone about it after I had taken the first steps and to my relief I didn't get the backlash I was scared of getting for making a decision for myself and so far, I have no regrets.

One thing that I have learned in the course of growing up is that no one truly knows me like I do and has my interests at heart like I do and because of that, it is the best option for me to be fully in charge of the decisions I make that have high impact in my life.

If my past self from years ago were to meet me today, I think she would still recognize me. Though I have grown out of so many things that I used to do when I was younger, but at heart, I still have that little girl in me and we still share the same interests and now that I am older I have the opportunity and liberty to actually pursue those interests the way my past self had always dreamt of.


THE BIG CHANGE?


The point in my life where everything changed for me was when I turned 18 when I began to meet new people other than those I knew from highschool. I made a lot of friends at that age and I was met with different mindsets and different types of drama even though looking back now, I'm beginning to fully grasp a lot of the things that were happening which I didn't understand then. But, the big change started when I was 18 and everything has been good since then.



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The choices we made in the past end up helping shape us into who we are today. So, no step was wasted, every one was important!

 18 days ago  

Very important. 😇
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The choices we made in the past end up helping shape us into who we are today. So, no step was wasted, every one was important!

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