
Today I wanted to express myself a little with a drawing. I've been really tired for weeks, but today has been the worst day of all. I feel too weak to fight, sometimes I feel like I'm crazy and everyone else is sane. My way of understanding and seeing the world is very different, and this has caused me too many problems. I would like to be as indifferent as everyone else, but I can't. I'm exhausted from many things and anxious for the holidays to arrive so I can alleviate this worry a little. This portrait really captures the heavy weight I feel on my shoulders, reflected in eyes tired of fighting, tired of never receiving justice.

I made the sketch a few days ago when I was already feeling a little down, but today I decided to paint it to take my mind off things, as I've been through a very unpleasant situation and needed to let off some steam. This time I wanted to use blue, which is the color that calms me the most, so I painted the skin with cool tones of blue, lilac, and pink. In a new layer, I added more colors to shape the face and also changed the background to three shades of blue. Then I began to mix the colors, and the entire painting process this time was done with only the diffuse brush, as I wanted a smooth finish without too much texture.

I also painted the eyebrows and eyelashes, then the clothes and hair. I made the clothes blue as well; I really wanted a lot of blue in this drawing. I created the highlights in the hair with a pale blue and low opacity, then added some shadow details and some reddish colors around the eyes, nose, and lips. I added highlights to areas of the face that I wanted to emphasize, and finally I made a color adjustment to give more depth to the entire drawing and also added two light sources in each corner.


Tools:
- Photoshop CC 2022
- XP-PEN Deco Pro
Herramientas:
- Photoshop CC 2022
- XP-PEN Deco Pro

Stunning as always 💗