Thank you! I think that sometimes I find it easier to put my feelings out there in the form of art or writing. Talking it through would be better but I admit I often felt alone as nobody at end of the line truly grasped what I was feeling. And I am pretty sure I have not managed to listen as well to others. You see, even words can be a barrier. We write one thing, the other puts his/her own interpretation, it goes back to us leaving us frustrated. This is what I liked about art: it can say 1000 words without the person ever speaking. It leaves room for reflection.
I did not tattoo at all since I came back to Romania. I have tried to find a tattoo shop where I could work but...surprise, I need professional qualification papers a.k.a. pay for a diploma from an academy in order to legally work there. So I have to put tattoing on the back burner but I will not quit! I truly want to tattoo and it saddens me that I have to go through a long break until I will be able to continue it again. In some countries as Denmark or Germany you do not need this paper.
I just have to go through starting all over again. Because if I will not find a shop to accomodate me I will have to open my own. And that is an effort I can't go through alone right now.
I try to keep my head high and take it as a journey and accept that I am just one woman , a human, trying to work with the cards given to me by the Universe.
Thank you for your encouragements, it has been a long time since I have written my soul out in romanian. It feels good. I will continue, your feedback gave me hope.
O zi frumoasă îți doresc🤗
And the search goes on for that someone who will understand it "the right way". I know. I resonate. I used to get sad when someone who I thought understood me just sailed on past my literary cries for help, utterly blind to my true meaning.
Then, I started asking myself why it mattered so much that this person hears me. Is it because I don't hear myself? Because I want someone else to somehow acknowledge and sanction my pain?
True. Maybe they don't connect with your specific truth at the time of creating. Maybe they just connect with your vibe, you know?
I didn't know that (Though not surprised tbh) Romanian bureaucracy, nothing quite like it. I hope you don't quit, and find a way to tattoo in the future. I'm glad you're viewing it as a long break.
Amen. <3 Words to print out and stick to the wall.
Si tie ;)