It was obvious from the beginning that she could leave me at any point. I had made that clear, I am the temporary, you are the permanent. Visually, you were never there. We moved past ten years of our life. When I slipped in front of many, you gave me your hand.
Despite all the chants of she loves him, look, she loves him.
Not for a single moment did she look back. Her eyes bigger than usual, still the same, however, I cannot recall them fully. For her, my first impression was struggling in the dirt, weary of the eyes. All those years, I never figured out what it was, love or just familiarity.
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At night, when she told me years back that she cannot hide it, the colleague in her office she cannot resist talking to. Emotional, she feels like cheating. I stood there. It doesn't matter to me. Or does it? Could I have resisted, or begged her to stay?
She has never been that. Confined. Free flowing. I liked that about her. Although now, reminiscing, I feel like I loved her the most. I do not know how to feel; sad that she left me, or privileged that she was the only one. From that day still, I have never found someone I could tell everything to. I think of the day that I slipped. If not for her, would I have ever known love?
I am still mad at you. You could have stayed.
27 April 2026, Freewriters Community Daily Writing Prompt Day 3086: first impression