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Mother's love is unrefined and cannot be hated no matter how it is conceived.
In my case, it was a matter of choice to keeping loving my mother. She has sacrificed a lot for us and is still doing the same.

My mother allowed a lot of child abuse and even defended her husband that was touching me. It's why I kinda hate her.

Oh my gosh.
Your step-father a used you? That must have been so horrible. Was she hypnotized to ha e allows that happen under her watch?

I was a problem child, acted out emotionally a lot so it seemed to her like I was just upset at him and was trying to get back at him somehow.