Meeee

[ollamma]

Wow, Xmas is. Just few days from now, funny how I feel so indifferent but all I wish for xmas, is to get me back, 2021 has been a whole experience for me, I lost myself severally, to depression, never felt frustrated all my life the way I felt this year, never been so depressed, but I keep going, just to remind us,you know that saying " we need to be kind to people because you never can tell what they are going through"? Well I think I get it more, I went through a whole lot of deep cheat, accused of things I know definitely nothing about, ( I kept asking myself if life is really this horrible?) I was rejected, and oppressed, but I thank God for the gift of family, I still feel the pain daily, but am glad I never yielded to that suicide thought, this is me sitting down this morning, just gazing and being thankful that am alive, and nothing else matters, truth is ,in the process I lost my self, my inner joy and peace, and that is all I desire Right now, to rediscover myself, and make me and everyone around me smile ,and be sincerely happy for myself too