When will it end?
Continually I asked it to myself as I wiped my daughter's body with a wet hand towel. A sponge bath to lower her high fever of 40°C. I was exhausted with the weeks of sleepless nights caring for my daughters.
It started last week of November 2023 when Jewel, my type 1 diabetic daughter, was caught with coughs and colds. Again, ending the year with struggles and trials in life. As I had experienced every time she got sick, her blood sugar would rise also. December 14, 2023, as I was so scared it would happen again, we went to a Pediatrician to look at her and give her medications.
She was getting better thankfully after 7 days. But as the days for her medications were done, December 22, her cough got worse because she ate a slice of mango during our Church activity, and she was secretly eating the chocolates I keep inside my drawer. This time it was worse. She would wake up three to four times every night because of cough and throw up each time.
This happened for 2 weeks and because of this, I felt too tired to wake up early to prepare for work. Jewel had lost weight already and I could see her face so tired and weak. In the third week, every first cough she had was like a nightmare for me. She had a hard time catching her breath, and sometimes it was like she could not breathe for a couple of minutes. This scenario made me so scared that I could feel my body shaking every night, afraid she could not get her breath back.
January, on the second day of the third week, we went to another Pediatrician and Jewel was given a higher kind of antibiotic, salbutamol, and cetirizine. Jewel's blood sugar rose to 430 on the first night of taking her medicine. The next morning it was 320, and 540 in the afternoon. She told her father when she was in 540 that she felt her hands and legs shaking. So, I decided to add 1 unit of fast-acting insulin to her evening shots hoping it would lower her blood sugar to normal.
That night, before she got to bed she vomited again. Inside me I wanted to give up, I was so very tired and I could not think very well. I was not able to give her her snacks that night because of tiredness. When her cough attacked again that night it woke me up to help her breathe and remember I hadn't checked her blood sugar. When I checked it the number made me more nervous that night because it was only 37.
I checked again thinking the glocumeter was wrong, but it became 35. I rushed to get the Yakult and let her drink it. She asked for two biscuits because she was still hungry.
I did not go back to bed until her blood sugar became normal.
But the next night it was more scary because it was 25 even I did not add her insulin. I woke up because she was coughing hard again.
What if she did not cough that night? What if I was not able to check her blood sugar and give her food? I realized that God is still good even in these trying times. He still spares the life of my daughter.
Now, Jewel is getting better but Janneah had her turn. High fever, colds and cough the same as Jewel's. As of today, I still wake up at midnight to check Jewel's blood sugar. I still help Janneah breathe when coughing.
When will it end?
As a mother, and as a father, the battles in life will continue as long as I live and I have them. Tired? Yes, I am. I cried this previous night, but by God's Grace, I will not surrender.
Life is Hard but God is Good!
Thanks for being with me on this blog. With love, mommyjane 😘.
Laban lang mommyjane, praying for strength and good health. God is in control.
Thank you so much @chimegipamus ☺️. Laban lang gyud kay mahuman ra ni tanan. God is good all the time.
I know how tight your faith @mommyjane.. I know you're brave, you're strong. Always remember that God won't give you what you can't bear. Amping ikaw kanunay pod. God bless
Thank you for the encouragement @amoreyl. It means a lot to me this time. In God I put my trust always.
Virtual tight hugs on your way @mommyjane..
Keep on fighting, @mommyjane! Everything will be okay and always keep praying to God because He listens to your cry and sees your heart. Everything will be alright!
Thank you so much. Until this time Janneah is still having a hard time sleeping because of cough. But soon I know, everything will be okay.
It’s really tough to see our child being sick and it’s heartbreaking to see them in this kind of situation. Whenever my daughter gets sick as well, I always had a hard time sleeping because I wanted to monitor her from time to time. Get well soon to your daughter 🫶🏻 and be strong momma! We got this.
Yeah, that's true. Every time this happens I don't want to sleep even how tired I am just to see if they are still breathing. I am so paranoid when my kids get sick. I hope things will be okay soon. This night we didn't sleep much because of Janneah.
It's really hard for us mother witnessing our babies in pain but God is always good He will never leave us 😇
Very hard. I don't know if my husband feels the same 😁 but it is really hard. Still thankful we can feel God's goodness amid the storm.
todo pasa, Dios nos da la fuerza para continuar, en el momento no se siente así uno quiere dejarlo atrás, pero si se puede, en nombre de Dios!
everything passes, God gives us the strength to continue, at the moment it doesn't feel like that you want to leave it behind, but you can, in the name of God!
Thank you so much. I know soon everything will be okay and God will never leave me in this trying time.
There's nothing more anguishing than dealing with our kid's illnesses!
True. If only I could take all their sickness 😥.
Saludos, es cierto aterrador cuando una persona cercana está enferma y más cuando se trata de un hijo, duele y mucho. Gracias a Dios que su hija está mejorando. Bendiciones
I hug you, and I encourage you, it is not easy to have so many things put together and adapting to controlling this issue of diabetes in children must be super complex. I send you strength and never lose faith.
Keep the faith maam @mommyjane 🤗 God sees and hears.
Thanks ma'am @netswriting ☺️.
Fighting lang ma'am. God is always there for us. He will never live you nor forsake you