Knowing yourself if very confusing and hard to provoke. I remember when I'm in my 1st year in college my teacher in "understanding the self" ask me if I know myself, and I was like "do I really know who I'm I?
When you can't find the things that you really like and consider your choices and decision in life you won't be able to know yourself. Being afraid to take your side and chosen to live under anyone's lead is one of our biggest loses.
You did a great job, I wish that anyone's out there would have a courage to stand tall and decide to find their selves like you. To stop living under anyone's preferences. Wishing you all the best 🤗.