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Amidst these challenges, the narrator wrestles with imposter syndrome—a feeling that he does not belong in the software field and often considers whether he had failed to apply himself adequately. Despite studying diligently and giving his all to break into the software industry, luck seemed to slip through his fingers, leaving him to ponder if mediocrity is sufficient in an environment rife with fierce competition.
This self-blame incites a paralyzing sense of betrayal, as if turning towards a path he once sought to avoid with absolute certainty had cost him his dreams of living autonomously and away from the mundane.