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The speaker reveals a personal frustration with persistent loneliness, describing a state of "dry" love life since September 2024, which hints at ongoing singlehood. The desire for companionship leads her to contemplate "situationships"—a popular but often unhealthy middle ground between friendship and a committed relationship.
She openly admits to preferring these casual arrangements over remains single and bored, even equating them to "cigarettes"—toxic but temporarily satisfying. This analogy underscores a sense of leading oneself into self-destructive patterns in hopes of craving some form of emotional or physical closeness, despite knowing the risks.