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The author is highly critical of the way her suffering—and that of her deceased girlfriend—is used in her narrative. She accuses her own story of being manipulated into a spectacle for commercial gain, specifically criticizing her own book as a vehicle that exploits her pain, including her relationship with her late girlfriend. She describes herself during this period as "a desperate has-been hack writer," implying regret and disdain for how her personal history is being leveraged.
Her words accuse the culture of commodifying grief and mental health struggles, turning these intimate moments into profit. The mention of her "dead girlfriend’s pain and misery" being used to sell a book points to a broader critique of how authenticity and vulnerability can be exploited for financial benefits.