Ha, ha, ha, ha. Get up. Dust off your knees. Cry if needed. Keep doing your thing.
It seems there's a lot to be doing and not going around with making stupid decisions based on emotions. That's what I take from this. For the time being, I'll use the money I need and keep Powering Up and sending some HBD to savings. Maybe it will work, maybe it won't. It sure is a lot of fun for now.