I feel you on that so much man. I'm honestly grateful that there was something behind me kicking my butt out of the door finally.
I have been aware of my opportunity here, but fear has kept me from securing what lies right in front of me. It excites me to know that I am actually going to have the time and energy to perform to the best of my ability with something that I truly care about.
Thanks a lot for your support. I know I have so many amazing people on here willing to assist if I ever need a hand. Me being able to help others in return gives me joy. This whole community effort thing feels superior in every way to obeying a master at some place that I loathe.
I can't believe they said
This is absolute BS.
Even in the military you don't have to follow illegal orders and as an employee you only have to follow reasonable directions that are directly relevant and necessary for your job.
The thing is the majority of the workforce is more than willing to oblige. Doesn't mean they are happy to do so, but they are trapped in the system with no alternatives in sight.
I have slim hopes that down the road my union will find a way to prove that indeed that management is indeed giving me unacceptable orders. It certainly would be nice to receive some back pay as compensation for not being allowed to come to work for who knows how long. The thing is if that happens there is no way I will ever go back at this point. My mind has already been made.