It's okay to feel this way because you are only a human and not spirit, but Joe, don't be too hard on yourself bikonu oohh?...it hurts, I understand the feeling and those regrets but like you said, you did all the pushing for the best of your brother and you don't have to keep regretting afterall no one sees the future. I wish you can just lose yourself,I wish you can find reasons to move on with a new mindset...if wishes were horses indeed... I am sure that you will heal with time and pls keep writing, it's a therapy on its own
Good morning
It's hard when people who surrounds you does not feel this way, when you lose, this is when you realize how awful the world can be. The comfort you need to move on is no longer there, that's the kind of people I have. Thank you for your condolences anyway, you've been far too kind.