Life is usually better when we fluctuate from the good to the bad and vice versa. But when we only fluctuate within the bad, it becomes really hard to have that drive to do or achieve something. Or even see the positive or bright side of life. I think the waiting season can be painfully exhausting or draining but it's good to remember that it's a temporary state, not a permanent one. Things will change eventually, and for the better :)
You're right. Well this state isn't looking temporal, it's been happening for many years, but losing people just becomes the worst of it all and the last thing I actually wanted. But, I have hope despite everything
Right. Losing people worsens the state and makes it more unbearable. But I'm glad you have hope despite everything because hope can be a powerful feeling that always keeps us going.