It would be a great opportunity to see if we get to fulfill our dreams, I don't know if knowing that would be positive in the present, but I would definitely ask my 90 year old self.
I think the answers he has given you are as expected and tells you to trust in God, in his perfect timing and not to lose your faith and hope that everything will happen. Cheer up beautiful, besides you look very pretty being older. 😊
Blessings and I'm glad you've posted despite everything. Blessings 🌷🤗🙏