I believe that for many people, 2023 was a year of a lot of learning. In my case, there were some physical and material losses, and above all, those emotional losses that hurt our souls, those people who are part of our lives and who we think love us the same way we love them, even more for being people of our own blood. But one fine day, we discover that they do not, that they do not know the words "solidarity, empathy, loyalty", among others and we feel that we fall so far down into the hole of depression, that we hit rock bottom.
Has it happened to you?
Well, that's a summary of what my 2023 was like. It was a year full of painful learnings and today I find myself shaking off the dust I got dirty with when I fell to the bottom, I am putting band-aids on every wound and trying to rescue the dignity and self-respect that is left over there.
And I hadn't realized until this weekend that there was something I particularly needed. I was feeling depressed, bitter, anxious about everything I had been through, not realizing that the confinement was what was hurting me the most. It was literally killing me slowly. I needed to go to the beach, to take a swim in its waters, to walk along the seashore, to breathe that sea air, to fill my lungs with that aroma.
So when I woke up last Saturday, I decided to go to the beach with my son. And although I needed, more than anything, to be alone, not to think about the problems, to take a few hours for myself. The truth is that above all, I am a mother and my son and I are a whole; I could not simply disappear and leave him alone. I have never left him alone, the time will come to simply be Alicia, giving herself some time alone.
I drove to the coastal strip and we stopped there for a while and I remembered that the last time I was in that same place was more than two years ago. I remember that I had gone there to celebrate that my son had won an Academic Excellence Award from the Mayor's Office of my community. We went to eat and enjoy a day at the beach. Here we were again, almost three years later, the two of us, like the family we are. Then we went to have lunch at a very picturesque restaurant on the shore of the beach and continued our tour. We arrived at Playa Pelua and there we took a dip in the sea.
The sea is the same anywhere in the world; it gives us peace, relaxes us and fills us with a soft and delicious lethargy. And if I'm honest, I didn't think much about my problems, my situation or how to get out of this quagmire I'm still in. But I did get calm, quiet, peace....
I was relaxed...
All photos are my own, taken with the camera of my Xiaomi Redmi Note 12 cell phone. The photo frames are courtesy of Canva and PhotoScape; both programs are free.
It’s so beautiful to read how you will never leave your son alone no matter how much you want to be alone.
The third picture is already really beautiful.
Wow, thank you!
No, I will never leave my son alone. It's just the two of us and it's not fair that I go and enjoy myself and he stays at home. I know it won't be long before he starts going out with his friends, because he is at that stage and when that happens, then I know I will be able to enjoy some alone time.
Thank you for such nice words 💕.
You’re welcome