I understand the feeling. It's like wanting her to stay but knowing that the more she stays the more she suffers so it kinda feels like it's a good thing her stay was cut short. Sending you love and light♥️..
And for what it's worth? I got to to see another side of you, the emotional side. I feel like squeezing you in a hug.
Yes exactly prolonging the suffering is not a good thing I think!
Well for what it's worth I won't complain being squeezed in that hug ;)