It's completely normal to be nervous. That anticipatory feeling is utterly normal. If course you don't want to think about success, because what if you aren't, in the way a part of you would really like to be? There's no telling you that you already ARE a success, is there?
I could bet right now that you are going to have a great time, learn a lot, and have something to say about the experience.
Vulnerability is hard. Ironically. Because it requires softness and leaning in to whatever blade may pain you. How delicious.
Oh, and not everyone likes Barthes either.
You don't need to like a man's output and musings in order to acknowledge the influence he's had on tens of thousands of individuals, but I am nitpicking.
I guess it is something ingrained in my psyche at this point of my life. I need more self-imposed CBT, and to practice what I preach, and to actually listen to those who care deeply about it(I am leaving that typo in because it was meant to be "me" - nice Fruedian slip).
I am sure that the opening will be amicable and full of people talking and speaking - but I am defining my metric of success on this one as money. Cold hard cashola in my wallet.