is this the same sort of shame that a parent feels as they escort a misbehaving child away from the chaos they've unleashed upon the world?
I think my glitchy brain only academically understands the concept of shame; maybe it was projected in the annoyance that I felt in situations where I think shame was supposed to be one of the reactions, but there have been many more occasions where apparently that's what I was meant to be feeling and I've just been lizard staring at someone knowing that I'm meant to have/they're expecting some kind of reaction but one isn't forthcoming and I don't always know which one to put on (this has actually been extremely useful dealing with narcissists and lesser attention seekers, they seem to get extremely frustrated when they can't get the reaction they want or any reaction at all).
And people wonder why I have imposter syndrome, the boys and I really feel like massive actors so much of the time XD
Do you have imposter syndrome? Is that why you don't like hauling your work around in public?
Sad that you didn't make any money but glad that you had some good conversations :D I think the biggest problem is the misperception that art is "easy" and anyone can do it well (literally anyone can actually do it).
I absolutely do have imposter syndrome.
Shame in my view is the opposite of pride. I'm not proud to carry the frame down the street, to stand alongside the work to "strangers" (on the street) and say, I made this, whaddya think?
Because the level of academic mud I've put myself in to give it context and meaning may not be as elegantly executed by the finished piece. The meaning not distilled enough.
Well it doesn't sound like you're saying anything and in the eyes of a stranger you're equally likely to be some guy that bought that piece of art and is taking it home as the guy who made the piece of art and taking it to an exhibition or back from the framer's XD
Interesting flip. Would I be comfortable carrying it home, if I was the purchaser? ... Probably not! Buy would I be happy to show people that I invite into my home the work? Absolutely yes.
So conflicted.
Maybe it's just because carrying a decent sized frame down the road is an unusual thing, would you feel that uncomfortable if you were carrying your average bag of shopping or if the frame was small enough to fit in your backpack? Would it be the same type and level of discomfort if you were carrying a new flatpack piece of furniture? :D
I think I'm similar, if you're silly enough to ask me questions about my project in a very casual setting and conversation I'll talk your ear off forever if I have a starting point but I think I would freeze up and die in an exhibition setting with random strangers asking me stuff x_x