Each passing day I keep ignoring the truth, not because I don’t know it but because I kept feeling that others deserve better. I really do owe myself an apology, a sincere apology for not always choosing me, for not loving myself the way I ought to, for letting other people’s opinion of me determine how I treat myself, for not speaking up for myself when I should and for always shrinking in just to fit into people’s life.
I kept pondering about how I have lost myself all this while, and I just realized it all started during my upbringing, I guess I learnt it the wrong way. Right from when I was a kid my grandma taught me to always be kind to others, to be nice to people, to consider others first, to seek the opinion of others when trying to do something. There were all good advice right, ohh yes! But I guess it practiced it the wrong way, I guess I lost my own self while trying to heed to this advice.