Even in the most hopeless situation, we have the opportunity to wait. Expectations will help to survive any troubles that cannot kill us. The only thing our expectations cannot cope with is our death.
It seems if to me that your emotions have changed your realism towards pessimism?
I don't think I am pessimistic, but I do observe many people and watch and discuss reaction to events. Everyone thinks they are objective in how they approach life, none are. Most however these days, are highly reactive based on emotional response, with very little patience or skill for evaluation and strategy - erratic.
Well noticed, we are controlled as puppets using our inability to control emotions.