Hi @ely-sw welcome to Hive. I'm @palomap3 from Lovesniper OCD team.
It's good to know that you didn't give up in the face of adversity. You've set yourself very high expectations, and I hope you can achieve them, although you also need to be prepared for the possibility of not succeeding, and not let that discourage you from improving. I can see that you have good support, as you're joining a community with extensive experience in Hive, so I'll leave you with some useful information in the links below and wish you luck on this new path you're embarking on here.
Tips and information as a Hive newbie here: newbie guide.
Communities you might like that are part of the OCD Communities Incubation Program. Important: read their rules and post in the one that fits your content.
Have a good day!