That's one of hell story. I can't imagine how your life being a law enforcer those days. It's true that for you it's hitting you mentally. Well, who would've be fine watching a person dies. What is more painful to you for sure was that a child dying in your arms.
I see a hero in hive today. Life is cruel indeed but for some reason. Life still good because you are now a talented photographer. Also don't forget us here in hive community. Don't forget that you have us.
I'm not a native english speaker so it's hard for me to understand what is deranged. But even so, I think your name is so cool. By the way have a nice day and keep safe.
I appreciate the nice words. It has been a hard life, but it has made me who I am and appreciate my life and the time I have with my family.