I am so sorry to hear this.
Please take care of your body. You are a strong person. You have come so far in the two + years I have known you. You have proven you can do anything you set your mind to. All you have to do is read your own blog to see it.
You will survive this and come out stronger than before. Keep your faith. Never lose hope.
I will be praying for you my friend.
You're right, although it's devastating I've come to terms with it and set myself on a recovery path. It's just one of life's unforseen circumstances. thanks a whole lot again I'm grateful
Just get better first. Your health is too important to mess with.
HUGS