Good day to you great and wonderful people. I'm @aowilson and this is my entry for the weekly prompt 38 " Things i did that i find childish now".
Childhood comes with it's own foolishness and stupidity naturally. I've heard quotes like allow the children to play.
So while growing up:
I love to keep to myself, I love to hear my burdens and problems all by myself, I will never open up no matter how much am pained. Simply because I had the mindset that nobody could understand me.
This made me begin to follow and listen to a certain musician called NF, he writes dark music and that was what I felt. I think that is the most childish things I have ever done in life because a matured person knows how to communicate his or her feelings. Talk to people even if it's one person, involve a third party if possible. Many people use the guise of "I am an introvert" to die in silence, keep malice with people and be changing partners anyhow.
Follow my story:
Now because of this reason, sometimes in my JSS3 back then in secondary school, something happened. I used to have 2 friends with whome we do things together, share stuffs together and all. We stayed in the same hostel.
Now, it happens that, after siesta we go in for afternoon preps, so the bell was rung an I dressed and walked out. My two other friends were eating bread and sardine, they actually waited for me to leave before they brought it out and began to eat.
They didn't know I saw them and I never told them, because I felt so betrayed and cheatedm I began to think that this may not be the only thing they do behind my back, so it got me hurt even the more. I was pained because like I said , we share everything together, and most importantly that particular day, I was hungry, I didn't eat much at the dinning.
So I began to keep malice with the both of them, a very serious malice, I suddenly stopped talking to them. I didn't tell them anything about what I saw or how I feel, and definitely I couldn't even tell anyone. Oh what a loss for me because I actually became a "one man gang" , no support and no friends. It was really hard for me.
To cut the long story short, I brought myself back to them and told them what was going on and that was our reunion. I really lost a lot at that period.
That word "introvert" has been misused by many people. We are just being scared "what people will say". It's childish to keep to yourself, especially when you need help or you're hurt. Matured people know how to communicate with each other, rather than pointing fingers and blaming everybody for something wrong with them.
Now this may be a word for someone that you should open up and look for a trusted third party and relate how you feel about what happened to you that brought a bridge between your relationship with them. If you can approach them it's fine, sum up boldness and meet them, if not, then, get a third party involved.
You know, the multiple partners(boyfriend and girlfriend) we used to chase after back then is part of this childishness I did. There was no single vision of commitment to grow relationships. Once this person just does something wrong, it's over!!! No chance for explanation and we move on to a new person and begin to talk to them. I consider that to be childish.
I have this somebody I don't know if I should still call her a friend, but we began talking December 2024. We became so very close that I think she ranked me top 3 closest male friends. I had to mention this so you will see the gravity of what she did.
Fast forward to February, I think I mistakenly snubbed her chat and she got angry, we fought and reconciled. I think I did it again, we still fought. Then the third time. You won't believe it that she said we can't be friends again 😂. I thought it's the anger of the snub ohh, until she became adamant and wasn't replying my message. I let her be and reached out a week later, she maintained her grounds and I say, alright it's fine✌️.
Me and my friend
That's a childish behavior, I consider it to be one. Matured minds open up, communicate and clear every dust and move on with relationships. Somebody!!!Leave that shell of hurt and talk it out!!!!
I just hope my story blesses someone real good 😌😌.
Peace out ✌️🫴
AO Wilson