Sorry to hear about your mum. My dad died when I was 23, so I have some experience of the pain you've been through. I don't think it gets easier, you just learn to live with it and concentrate on the good memories.
I'd like to see some changes with Hive. Having a 4 week powerdown would help. Lots of people lost confidence in Hive, Steem and any DPOS blockchain during the war with Justin Sun. More needs to be done to make sure nothing like that happens again. I've kept all my Hive but haven't bought more. Hope I can feel the urge to buy again one day.