"I witnessed my heart die."
This is a devastating occurrence. I have never had a desire to be on stage. My experiences in music sometimes involved it, but I only endured it to play. I had to play to audiences to play in a band. Magic seems more focused personally on audiences than music, to bare your inmost nature to the people. I cannot imagine such a deep yearning to please an audience that it could result in such a terrible loss, but I do not doubt you did.
In the video with Michael Vincent (Youtoob would not let me watch the other) you seem an earnest sidekick. You must have greatly admired his work, and his person, to study with him so long and travel so far. I was sad to read you parted ways with finality, and sadder by far to read your heart died.
My eldest son had a passing interest in magic, but he was Captain of the football team, and involved in many organizations that kept him on stages, debate, Tai Kwon Do, and playing guitar in a popular band, that must have made his interest in the art of illusion less keenly experienced for him. That is as close to knowing much about magic as I ever got.
I can see how such a widely different dream put grubby farm work outside of your career plans. I have done things on farms that deeply challenged me, bucking hay until I puked, and cleaning calf pens. The potent anaerobic odor was like a physical blow to the face, something I would not eagerly repeat but dairy men face regularly. You were gallant to handle the manure there, revealing a facet of your character to me at odds with a career on stage. Such humility and public appearances are but rarely encountered in one man. Your childhood and youth are so starkly different than mine, your family completely outside my experience, your street smarts in legendary Kowloon, your struggle to escape, your refuge in Buddhism and books, eldritch. Wing Chun I know only that no teacher for my sons could be found here, and I don't even know what Zhou Yi is. My knowledge of Buddhism is limited to a single analogy a dead friend gave to me before he died, that life is a man dangling on a rope down a cliff, with rodents he could not see chewing on the rope above, and a bush with sweet berries he had opportunity to taste before the rope was severed. A great gift that taught me to savor the sweet berries in life. Young Moon died much too soon, and left a family with the house at the top of the hill I helped him build.
But you do keep it real. There isn't any sign of a veneer of braggadocio about you, and I have seen such peaceful mien from all the men I have known that had expertise in martial arts. They have nothing to prove, no need to test anyone, and disregard harsh words, attending to actions only as necessary. I do deeply relate to your love, and grief, for your dogs. I also lost Angel Baby Goldie Hawn, Angel, purebred pale yellow lab, and Ninja Storm Queen Latifa, Stormy, black as the darkest night, her daughter by Barnabas, the one eyed Weimeraner across the highway a kilometer away that sired 27 puppies by them, who smiled for me when my heart was lost, who loved me, and I them, to family twisting the knife in my back. My only solace is that they ended up with good people and not my ex.
I didn't mean to put you on the spot, and I hope you don't feel interrogated. I hadn't heard of the Belgian farm before, and your vivid description of the people and time there seemed like it had made quite an impression on you.
I have heard of the I Ching. I did not know of the Zhou Yi.
My exposure to maths does not agree that they are a language of gods, but of men, and like all languages can be used to mislead. I am inherently skeptical of claims of divination, so please forgive my remaining skeptical. It is simply my nature.
I do appreciate the sincerity with which you have provided the information though, and while I may not fall in with believers of any philosophy or faith, that does not mean I do not marvel, and even respect, those that have devised them. Means of controlling the minds of man are intricate, powerful, and very valuable to those that can wield them with facility.
Very interesting videos, fabulous life on the farm, it would exchange mine without hesitation for living using that wooden bath, taking care of chickens and having breakfast yogurt in the mornings.
Unicorn meetings, infinitely long texts but my time does not reach me. However, I am not with a disposal of writing much, occupations that require generating the money that keeps me alive (Valued knows what I mean) they call me exactly at this time. Today I have worked 14 hours, zero of interweekment, and I have 2 more hours ahead of now spiritual work, I have not commented, but I was one of the strongest psychics/clairvoyants of this country, and I have currently decided to resume it and generate income with it. The next 2 hours will be attending online concerns and questions about the future of people and helping them to advance, or at least bring tranquility to their lives.
Anyway, I know Buddhism, I have gone through many religions, I have been even Satanist, Mormon, Evangelical, Protestant, etc ... a great baggage of experience but I will talk to them in fragments of that on other occasions.
Greetings for you, Hive Unicorns.
PS: I am not "charro", the charros are Mexican, I am from Venezuela, although it is fun to read that you consider me a charro 😀, I suppose you have that idea of the 3rd world, so do not worry, I do not offend myself.
Nice to read that!. Later on this week i will came with some free time to talk about spiritual stuff, and maybe about my life(but on private, i have a personal policy of dont post about personal affairs on hive) a bit. But mostly i can say that i had a very hard life, i know very close the death and the hunger, walking with the poverty. Many tails brave smoke. I take note of your email, later i will contact (on this week), now i am fucking really busy. Tuesdays are the most busy/hards days of week for me, so dont expect any comunication from me tomorrow, because i can hardly I can stand up, since I usually be very stressed, tired and busy.
Also i forget to mention that i am paranormal investigator and conferencist about UFO/OVNI phenomena from many years ago. I used to talk on online conferences on paltalk(an old like discord service of old times) where was with questions of 5000 persons at real time, but again, i will tell you about this on other ocassions.
we continue soon my friend.